Teens and parents –

TEENAGERS: What can i say? They are dramatic, lazy, stupid, crazy, and what not. well, MOST of them are.

PARENTS: There’s a time when they do care about what their teen is doing, and there’s a time where they just say, ” FUCK IT! ” they’re on their own.

Today’s blog is about parenting the teens. I chose this topic because i can relate to it. As a teen, everything must be done my way. I am sometimes unreliable, not trustworthy, and impatient. But that’s just me. I lie to go to parties, and I lie to not get in trouble. [ PARENTS, expect that from your teens. ] Anyways, it is true what they say, “STRICT PARENTS, CREATE SNEAKY CHILDREN”. My parents are average strict. They say no at times, and i disobediently do what i want. We teens have similar minds. We get what we want, and when it doesn’t go our way, we make everyone’s life miserable. Parent’s have to deal with this everyday. I give them a big round of applause for all the shit they go through, and still they stand. Parents are the most bravest people i have ever seen. Taking on everyday with new challenges, different attitudes, and what not. [ Give yourself a big pat on the back ]. Not everyday is easy.

       This is a STORY about a teenager and her father. The girl calls her dad seeking help. He, however, just got home from a very hard and tiring busy day at work. He tells the daughter, ” FIGURE IT OUT ” , and hangs up the phone, sits on the couch and turns the T.V on.

Now this is a father who told his daughter that no matter what happens out there, as long as he is still breathing and alive, if she is in trouble, call him IMMEDIATELY. What message does that send out to the girl? Does it solve anything? No it doesn’t.

A PARENTS JOB AS A PARENT IS NEVER DONE, NO MATTER HOW OLD THE CHILD GETS.

NO FAME !

Normal. No, i wouldn’t call myself that. 

Im a combination of crazy, and Loud which is not normal. I know im NOT the only [ UNfamous ] person who wished they were FAMOUS. Putting my name out there and having fame is awesome, but then i could just kiss my PRIVACY goodbye. I say people like me are blessed with NO FAME. We can keep our privacy. Lead Normal lives. Party, without our faces on magazines showing how fucked up we got. BUT HEY, I give props to the people with FAME. I don’t know how they lead the life they LEAD today. I guess people have their own definition of NORMAL. Maybe being famous is totally normal for those with Fame. 

Drop a beat Yo’

Okay, So i Like to rap. Ain’t nothing wrong with it. A Girl can rap if she got the skills. I wouldn’t call myself a GOOD rapper, i’m just trying out new things. I have this rap lyrics, its coming along and i just thought i can share it here. I call it ,  ” Little me ”

It all started out when i made it to sixteen picked out my first cellphone without a touchscreen my mama cried loud screaming out my first name fights going off wait a minute, i be blamed? i drew a long line far apart from him and me said i was his lil’ baby till i grew an inch i’d gladly replay what has been said , lip synch’d this madness made me wanna leave’em all forever i aint sayin they were the was worst people ever but theres a time when it comes and people aint that clever All your voices and your choices driving me insane saying thatchu care but your trust isnt there we know your tryin your best to be the greatest models but lets be really honest, you was damn very aweful. I didnt understand why people had you all cherished i wanted something close to that i that nearly perished im not saying i never had a single thing, but it’d be nice if i was purchased with a little bling and so if Im wrong then she wrong i guess we all just wrong you know i get when she got he get it we got it so just forget it i had no more then what i really fucken needed we was beated, not treated, aliminated, and defeated i knew my life was expected and never to be neglected so throw yo’ hands up if my rap is well respected.

It’s probably a bit too much.. i think, but this little rap that is still in process explains alot about me.

Youngest

BEING the Youngest, it has it advantages and ofcourse it’s disadvantages.

 

In this Family, i happen to be the youngest of (6) six including myself. One brother, and the rest are girls. Thing is, i hate being the youngest. I always do everything LAST. My siblings get everything i want FIRST then me. For instance: I wanted to learn how to DRIVE. I almost waited for the longest time of my life to drive, i couldn’t wait for the SECOND to the Youngest sister to learn, so i started to teach myself, using my friends car. After learning to drive automatic, i asked my father if HE could teach me how to drive Standard. ” NO!!!! “, he said. Man did i CRY. So again, i had one of my Guy older friends teach me. I’m pretty pleased with myself. So that’s one thing i hate about being the youngest.

Here’s another. Friends. They treat you differently. For instance: here on this Island, Your friends are more like your relatives. Same age. Same Grade. I am the same grade and age as my GUY relatives, and the thing with me is that i BARELY have GIRL friends. Only cause i Like hangin with the boys. Doesn’t make me a SLUT or all them bad things. I just like thier company. The thing is, they would rather have my sister around. My sister is a year older then me, so They think she’s coolerrrrrr….. (-.-) MY SISTER on the other hand, doesn’t like ME hanging out with HER. So see, i’m always staying home watching movies. Life SUCKS at this point for me.

TERRIFIED.

Sacred much? everyone has their days. 
It’s almost time to go back to school. Being a freshmen in college scares me. I feel like it’s going to be high school all over again. Except, w. NO friends. Going to a University here on Guam is not my first choice, but as for now, my ONLY choice. I should’ve gone to a community college like my sister, but my old man don’t think it would be a good environment for me. So, here i am going to a university with no friends. I don’t know anyone who will be going there. I’m scared the teacher’s are what i expect them to be. I’m scared the student wont like me. I’m scared to fail. I’m scared to be judged. I am entering this university alone. Other then that, i wonder how college is. Do you get work everyday? No breaks? I know i shouldn’t be worried about this right now, but lets face it, im going to be lost on my very FIRST day. No doubt. I guess it’s time for a change. Something i would experience on my own. I always have my sister right by my side at everything i do.
Guess not this time…. I AM SOOOO TERRIFIED.

R.E.P.L.A.Y

Replaying memories?

Replaying Songs?

Replaying misfits?

Replaying Life?

STOP. move the FUCK on . 

In my case,  a lot of people talk about how they reminisce the past. Thats fine. It’s just that if you continue to replay these kind of situations you end up either:

1. Depressed

2. Obsessed

3. You blame yourself for how your future is NOW.

Feelings get hurt. People get pushed away. Things get fucked up. and WORSE: becoming friends with the girl/boy of your dreams. Meaning, the love of your LIFE.

Truthful said, PEOPLE say they are over it, but somewhere in that BODY you are dying to let it out. 

— This one is for Blk Panther (Jun)

BACK FUCKIN’ STABBERS!

To begin, what the fuck is going on with the universe.

 

i know i shouldn’t or anyone shouldn’t blame the world about their problems, but let’s face it… in this world, there are some fucken people who are just … CHALLENGED. and i don’t mean Specially Challenged. i just mean CHALLENGED and Rude. So here’s the story:

 

      Everyday of this someones life, lets call her BEE, she tends to never take responsiblity with what she does. Since diapers, i have been the ONLY one taking all the consequences for all that she does. Ain’t that fully of SHIT? Well, she has a CLEAN record with the oldies, because she’s always letting me or my brother take all the blame. I know, that i can tell on her, but i choose not to because what difference is it going to make. If i did spill the beans on her, she’ll come up with all these lies that can get me into trouble. So i technically take all the fault and NEVER ask for anything in return. I SMOKE. My parents HATE it. BEE always uses it against me. I gave up on what they are gonna do if they catch me. I just don’t give a fuck anymore. So anyways, after taking her back on everything she does and doesn’t want to take responsibility for, i can guarantee you that NEVER in my life of getting a deep shit has she ever stood up for me. NEVER. I stood up for her when she was about to get whipped. I stood up for her when she’s about to get yelled at. BUT has she ever done that for me? NO. NO. NO. BEE, is Self-fish. She NEVER takes responsibility for her actions, and choices. She puts friends before FAMILY. &Let me tell you something… NO MATTER how fucked up your family gets, NEVER PUT THEM LAST. When she was sick, I stood by her all night making sure she had some rest, When her birthday came, I made a surprise birthday and got her a GIFT. When she is ABOUT to get whipped, i stand in front of her. The saddest part about this is, She doesn’t care about me. ONLY for herself. Those friends of hers WILL help her, and Love her as much as she Likes, but they’ll NEVER ever CARE for her as much as her little sister will, ME. 

Hi.

So , i guess i should begin by stating my name. I’d like to be called OPTIMISTIC. I guess it’s because i’m fairly confident in all that i do. Welcome to reading about the story of myLife (: